Sunday, January 1, 2012

If its supposed to happen it will

I've always believed that, sometimes I've argued with how true it is.  I think everyone has.
  I have been very lucky to stay home with our two girls for the past 2 years straight. It has been a challenge. Bills dont wait for the money to be available, they come whether you're ready or not! Im so thankful Justin has been able to pull the weight of his family with little complaint by himself for over 2 years,and including a move to a new state! that was $$$$$$$$$$$$ but he did it! Not many people our age can say they can, or did! Not many people our age try as hard as we do for the, big picture, OUR FAMILY.  I'm so grateful for him. He's been my rock this whole time a lot of what people don't see, that makes it extra special for me. 
  I have made the choice to go back to work for a little while. It hasn't been an easy choice. I've cried about it, I'm scared, I'm stressed. I've pondered months and months about it. And finally I landed a job that would make it worth it to go to. But one very important factor was left to be determined. Who on this crazy earth would I feel at ease with the responsibility of our babies?! I talked to everyone I've come in contact with, feeling the date get closer and closer, I really just wanted to give up. There is no way someone could love someone else child enough. Im the only one that can love these two and make sure all is well.  I told Justin I was sorry that I was going to have to turn this job down. He was disappointed but again he was willing to continue to support us. A couple days went by and I decided to give it one last try. I set up two appointments with some child care providers I had been referred to.
Justin's following day off we went to interview these ladies.  They were night n day to each other. The first one (of course) scared the crap out of me the second we walked in. We sat through the interview I asked all my 4 pages of detailed questions, and everyone she answered scared me.  She just wanted the money it was clear.  So we went to the next one. The second we walked in we looked at each other like this could be! The lady was amazing we visited, and laughed and fell in love with each other. We even met her whole family! They were there dividing up the donation boxes they put out at local stores. They have a list of families and facilities that need items, and they deliver them there. That was the icing on the cake! I'm so excited for the girls to be apart of this wonderful family while Justin and I work and do our school stuff. The girls didn't want to leave, they are counting down the days to when she can go back! There is no better feeling to parents that their children are happy and safe! So it's back to work I go with plans for making things a little bit better for OUR FAMILY!

2011 has been a year of change, and growing. Im exciting for what 2012 may bring!

 Happy New Year!!